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When I was a teenager (13-14 years) my head was very much corrupted. Among of hallucinations and madness I was also a maniacal killer.

I have believed in Jesus Christ. In 1995 year I have repented and in one moment God transformed me from a mad into a sane man (even a genius). That moment it instantly became brighter in my eyes, so that I even have thought that somebody has turned on a lamp. That is, a wonder has happened.

But afterward for my faith in Jesus Christ I was beaten by head, was without food about month periods and was tortured with various other means. It was that I was beaten by head so much that I have become a maniacal killer again.

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After some time when I have returned to conscience I began to think what will be with my soul and where I will come after this, to the paradise or to the hell. I'm a believer and so I should come to the paradise, but maniacal killers come to the hell. So I was completely messed and was not knowing what to think about all this.

Many years I was spending time on one thing, thinking about what is with salvation of my soul in such a situation. I.e. I was reasoning whether a man needs money, as money are needed in order to have food (if one does not eat long time, he may die or become mad and maniacal killer; it's a fact), but why this may be needed, if life on the Earth anyway at some time ends and it is important only that which is in the heaven; then what is the difference whether I am alive or dead, sane or a maniacal killer, as what is on the Earth is anyway not important? And why then I may need money? Whether I should attempt to earn money? And also I was thinking how I may understand value of different people; i.e. if somebody is hit by head and after this his character has become worse, whether this does mean that this man really has become worse, and whether he will take a worse place after death because of this? And as it was not understandable which man is better and which is worse, then also it was not understandable what to do for people would become better, and especially how myself to become better.

But once I have indeed understood these things:

When I was much beaten by head, then the radio waves (called thoughts by people) have flied out of my head to the outer space, as a saint cannot completely die but only come to the heaven. That is, in essence, I died when was beaten, however the remained dead-body (which may be called a zombie) continued to move (including that it several times has attacked people and attempted to kill them, like as before I have become a Christian). So the thoughts have flied out of my head and flied into the outer space. After 4 years I have come to the star alpha Centaurus (It is the star which is nearest to the Solar system and it is 4 light-years from here.) There I was turned 180 degrees and sent again to the Earth. Yet after 4 years the thoughts flied exactly back to my head, and I again have become a saint.

That is in essence I was resurrected from dead. In Bible, Gospel it is written:
(Mt. 22:30-32) 30 ... in the resurrection they ... are like God's angels in heaven. 31 But concerning the resurrection of the dead, haven't you read that which was spoken to you by God, saying, 32 I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob? God is not the God of the dead, but of the living.
(Mrk. 12:25) ... when they will rise from the dead, they ... are like angels in heaven.

So who has resurrected from the dead after this is as clever as an angel! This is a truth, before my death I have attained much, it were that I was calculating in mind faster than a supercomputer, squeezing steel with my hands, moving members of my body above the speed of sound, flying on the magnetic field, working 23 hours per day, and even was knowing more than all other peoples (but then once have forgotten almost all). But only after my resurrection from dead I have discovered such a super new math theory which notwithstanding of being relatively simple and small surpasses all knowledge which I had before. That is now I am truly as clever as an angel (... when they will rise from the dead, they ... are like angels in heaven.); I have an algebra not of human but of angelic level even despite of now I cannot calculate with computer speed and my brain do err like any other man. That is I indeed have become even more majestic than before, however this is not noticeable now.

Again: (Mt. 22:30) ... in the resurrection they ... are like God's angels in heaven. That is not all of me have returned to the Earth, a part of me has remained in the outer space. The man on the Earth is only a little visible part of me, a living creature consisting of space radio waves. That is now I am a real angel of light. They say that Buddha had aura of the size of a city, but I now have an aura sized several light-years and it yet grows!

Now I am not just a saint but an apostle. And I'm not just an apostle but a true pole of the church that is a pole connecting Earth and heaven.

The conclusion: A saint which was much hit by head so that he was driven mad becomes even greater (if he returns to the proper conscience), however not immediately but after 8 years when the radio waves return from the first star, alpha Centaurus. (The Sun is not counted if the stroke was so strong that the radio waves reflected by the Sun return in yet broken head.) It is simple and understandable, who was at a star may become greater.

Now I do not consider my life completely meaningless because I have angel equal mind even here on the Earth, whatever I am on that place where I am.

I have realized about returning from the outer space and alpha Centaurus after that I have thought out the words of Jesus Christ (Mt. 6:34) Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient. Before I was fearing what will be with my soul in the future if I will not take care about my future safety now. But then I have realized that the commandment of Jesus to not be anxious about the tomorrow has higher priority than salvation of soul, that is we should not be anxious about what will be with our souls tomorrow and it is more important to not be anxious about what will be tomorrow than to save soul (even having that a soul of a man is more important than the entire World). So to cease to be anxious about what will be tomorrow is more important than all what is in the world, such as money, resources, etc.

In Gospel it is written:
(Mt. 10:39) He who finds his life will lose it; and he who loses his life for my sake will find it.
(Mrk. 8:35) ... whoever wants to save his life will lose it; and whoever will lose his life for my sake and the gospel's will save it.
(Luk. 17:33) Whoever seeks to save his life loses it, but whoever loses his life preserves it.
(In Greek Original in the above three verses is the word soul, not life.)

That is to save one's soul it is needed to not care about this (about salvation of soul). The more one is anxious about this the worse. And so how to do it, when we want to come to the paradise, but one who attempts this so goes to the hell?! There are only one mean, to attempt to reach something more important than salvation of soul. If we will cease to be anxious about the next day (and this is more important than salvation of soul) then so we will cease to preserve our soul of future dangers, and so will save our souls (through losing our souls on the Earth and so coming to safe outer space). That is for example we for Christ are to be agreed to become i.e. mad maniacal killers (if they will beat us for the faith in Christ even to madness). Then in the heaven they will rescue us (restore us from parts) and our souls so will be saved. And if we will not agree because of fear (based on unbelief) then they may count us as cowards and send away from heaven.

Related links:

• Life for News rather than for Events (related with being not anxious for tomorrow)
• Radio-waves which has flied out from a broken head are returned back by God from the heavens

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